2006/01/22 03:34 | by
我不知道是我想太多還是怎樣，
也不知道我對這份感情的態度是怎樣，
或許只是想獨占這份友情，
亦或者其實已經在不知不覺中轉變為愛情？
不知道是什麼樣的態度，
只知道感到心裡難受，
明眼可見得的疏遠，
是否因為他已另結新歡？
我不知道我到底在想什麼，
不過，不管這份情感是什麼，
友情？亦或是愛情，
既然無法聚，
那就讓他分了吧。
或許，這會讓我心裡痛快些‧‧‧即使這不是我想要的結局。
也不知道我對這份感情的態度是怎樣，
或許只是想獨占這份友情，
亦或者其實已經在不知不覺中轉變為愛情？
不知道是什麼樣的態度，
只知道感到心裡難受，
明眼可見得的疏遠，
是否因為他已另結新歡？
我不知道我到底在想什麼，
不過，不管這份情感是什麼，
友情？亦或是愛情，
既然無法聚，
那就讓他分了吧。
或許，這會讓我心裡痛快些‧‧‧即使這不是我想要的結局。
徬徨？迷失？交錯？
我心如此難受，難道我已墮落？
徬徨？迷失？交錯？
能否破除一切，我不是敗絮其中！
徬徨？迷失？交錯？
我的耐心在暴風雨下慢慢消磨。
徬徨？迷失？交錯？
我仍然身處在黑暗之中？
2005年9月18日, 下午 01:37:53
(本章為試寫...現在看起來好垃圾)
我心如此難受，難道我已墮落？
徬徨？迷失？交錯？
能否破除一切，我不是敗絮其中！
徬徨？迷失？交錯？
我的耐心在暴風雨下慢慢消磨。
徬徨？迷失？交錯？
我仍然身處在黑暗之中？
2005年9月18日, 下午 01:37:53
(本章為試寫...現在看起來好垃圾)
Everything is Fucked Up!
I don't Care Now All That Much!
It is To Me! That All the Problems I Got!
I got Whole Wide World!
They Are All Pointing At Me!
But Even That They Don't Know!
That!
My Problem is Also Their Problem!
I Will Definately Make Them Realise!
That They All Have PRoblems!
Something Like This That They Would not Easily See!
That They Have A problem!
And You Can't Miss It!
Now!
In This World!
I Don't Fucking Care No More!
I'm Lonely!
Without a Word That I Stands Here!
Stands Still! Like A Rock! Like A Stone!
I Hate!
I Hate The Whole Wide Fucking World!
They Are Not Worth it! For Me To Think No More!
I Will Destroy!
Drstroy Every Fucking Single Thing Around Me!
You Think You know me! Bitch! But you don't!
From Now On!
Hate Would be all I have Left!
Every Single Darkness In My Heart!
Will Grow Up Into Deep In My Heart!
I have No Longer Anything To Care!
I Will Finish All My Works!
All The Courses That I Need To Take!
Just Like I will Hate!
Keep On To The End Of The Days!
One Day!
Everyone shoult See!
That I will Finish All The Grade!
Catch Up The Loss!
I will Stand Up Pround! With No Shame!
With The Truly Love One In My Hand!
Then! My Darkness Will Once Again!
Destroy Everything Like I said!
Until All That Is Left!
Is Me, My Love, And My Friends....The Truly dependable Friends!
2005年9月10日, 下午 07:15:11
I don't Care Now All That Much!
It is To Me! That All the Problems I Got!
I got Whole Wide World!
They Are All Pointing At Me!
But Even That They Don't Know!
That!
My Problem is Also Their Problem!
I Will Definately Make Them Realise!
That They All Have PRoblems!
Something Like This That They Would not Easily See!
That They Have A problem!
And You Can't Miss It!
Now!
In This World!
I Don't Fucking Care No More!
I'm Lonely!
Without a Word That I Stands Here!
Stands Still! Like A Rock! Like A Stone!
I Hate!
I Hate The Whole Wide Fucking World!
They Are Not Worth it! For Me To Think No More!
I Will Destroy!
Drstroy Every Fucking Single Thing Around Me!
You Think You know me! Bitch! But you don't!
From Now On!
Hate Would be all I have Left!
Every Single Darkness In My Heart!
Will Grow Up Into Deep In My Heart!
I have No Longer Anything To Care!
I Will Finish All My Works!
All The Courses That I Need To Take!
Just Like I will Hate!
Keep On To The End Of The Days!
One Day!
Everyone shoult See!
That I will Finish All The Grade!
Catch Up The Loss!
I will Stand Up Pround! With No Shame!
With The Truly Love One In My Hand!
Then! My Darkness Will Once Again!
Destroy Everything Like I said!
Until All That Is Left!
Is Me, My Love, And My Friends....The Truly dependable Friends!
2005年9月10日, 下午 07:15:11
有時真的感到為了寫而寫...不是為了心而寫...
自我的內在停留在這階段毫無進展...
我不想輸人...別人能做到的我一樣能做到...
我想要超越...超越眾人與一切...
我要達到高峰...才有資格抱得美人歸...[:P]
我也是人...心理也會有忌妒與羨慕
我羨慕別人的順利...也忌妒他們的勇氣...
我...真的心理好累...
但是我還是想要超越...超越眾人與一切...
直到我達到頂點...我才能真正看清一切...
我不想輸給別人...雖說跟別人的比較是不需要的...
我不想面對別人...雖說感到害怕是可笑的...
這麼多的一切一切...我需要去克服...
這麼多的一切一切...我需要去面對...
我不想自暴自棄...
我不想要浪費天份...我的聰明與一切...
我有個目標站在前面...我要超越...
我要達到能夠成為我所愛的人的幫助...
我想要成為某些人的支柱...還有某些人的幫助...
我有個目標...所以我不能籌措不前!!!
我要戰勝一切!!!
朝我的目標向前!!!!
上午 02:11 2005/7/22
(From 我想要戰勝一切.txt)
自我的內在停留在這階段毫無進展...
我不想輸人...別人能做到的我一樣能做到...
我想要超越...超越眾人與一切...
我要達到高峰...才有資格抱得美人歸...[:P]
我也是人...心理也會有忌妒與羨慕
我羨慕別人的順利...也忌妒他們的勇氣...
我...真的心理好累...
但是我還是想要超越...超越眾人與一切...
直到我達到頂點...我才能真正看清一切...
我不想輸給別人...雖說跟別人的比較是不需要的...
我不想面對別人...雖說感到害怕是可笑的...
這麼多的一切一切...我需要去克服...
這麼多的一切一切...我需要去面對...
我不想自暴自棄...
我不想要浪費天份...我的聰明與一切...
我有個目標站在前面...我要超越...
我要達到能夠成為我所愛的人的幫助...
我想要成為某些人的支柱...還有某些人的幫助...
我有個目標...所以我不能籌措不前!!!
我要戰勝一切!!!
朝我的目標向前!!!!
上午 02:11 2005/7/22
(From 我想要戰勝一切.txt)
Feeling So Fucked Up!
Not Like I care Anymore,
I have A Problem,
Because I'm Againest The Whole World,
What the Fuck Do They Know?
Don't You come bitch about me!
Cause You don't know me!
You Haven't been living with me, Taking Care of me!
They Break my heart,
My Little Confidence,
I try to Get Close to my Love,
But Everyone Around just Keep Standing in The Middle Of Us.
What's the Use Anyway?
She Might Not even Remember Me No More!
Now Even Her Mom,
Say that I have a Problem!
YEs! Of Course I have a Problems!
And My Problem is your problem!
I have A Problem Againest The Whole wide world!
And Nobody knows!
When That I might Explode!
下午 11:36 2005/7/15
Not Like I care Anymore,
I have A Problem,
Because I'm Againest The Whole World,
What the Fuck Do They Know?
Don't You come bitch about me!
Cause You don't know me!
You Haven't been living with me, Taking Care of me!
They Break my heart,
My Little Confidence,
I try to Get Close to my Love,
But Everyone Around just Keep Standing in The Middle Of Us.
What's the Use Anyway?
She Might Not even Remember Me No More!
Now Even Her Mom,
Say that I have a Problem!
YEs! Of Course I have a Problems!
And My Problem is your problem!
I have A Problem Againest The Whole wide world!
And Nobody knows!
When That I might Explode!
下午 11:36 2005/7/15
